#633

you'd wish :pp


( this is what was missing from Shukudai-kun - turtle porn *nods* )

I may have forgotten how studying should be done.. XD coz yeah fail. Anyhow,I can't let this make me angry..I can only look forward. It'll be hard the next year,but this is my limit ffs.Though no one understands..My mom started yelling on the phone again that I should have spent my summer more with studying and less with hobbies..I do understand that. But newsflash for you! My hobbies make me HAPPY,the thing that I'm unwillingly and out of necessity studying in uni is making me so.fucking.miserable! >: And I'd rather be happy,thank you very much. I would be studying much more if I had something that I'm passionate about as my major. >: But this..this is not my thing,and this is all I can do with little to non existent interest about it..Forcing myself to do things I don't like/enjoy never proved successful(or healthy)..
She also asked me what am I gonna do with my life in the end if I'm gonna take so long to graduate..Well,another newsflash for you! If I knew what I wanted to do with my life,I wouldn't be here doing something I don't like..I didn't know at 17,I don't know at 21 and probably won't know..Sadly for her I don't have any talents to take advantage of,I can't do anything *period* unless someone explains the how-to to me extensively and that's not gonna help me in the future..
No one understands..