#945

For the last few years,every time this day comes there is an irrational excitement that follows the news as they come out. Irrational and rather intoxicating. But as soon as it calms down(and it does so very quickly),it is followed by another feeling for a short period of time(at least until something equally exciting happens). The japanese very nicely call that " イライラ ". That uncontrollable annoyance towards everything and everyone who can(and might) be there while you can't, and never will.

Alas, as every year, you will have to silently stalk all the chinese blogs and Twitter,for a glimpse, a sound. Your imagination overloading while you read the slightest evidence of a report. Then track down as many WS reports(when any) and whatever fancams you can find, and also previews/scans for the usual greatness of unofficial concert photos. In the end of that dimly lit tunnel(dimly lit > dark) there is almost always that "holy moment" when 「The DVD」 of something gets released, and you forget for a while whatever you felt in paragraph 1. And it's good, but never good enough... Rinse and repeat.
Sadly,it gets more "painful" with every passing year.

...and the イライラ and those patient days, continue.