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Dear anonymous,
obviously I don't know who you are (duh!), but whoever you are, thank you for the 6-month paid account! :3 Maybe that will give me the initiative to get my ass off Tumblr and post more here as well. XD *time for new icons!~*

and lol, I was reading the email from Livejournal about this half asleep and I was all "wtf are they on about?" XD


sooo...(have to fill this entry :p) this weekend will consist of today, going to couch shopping for my new apartment,possibly watching HP7.2? Saturday, pretending to be a hikkikomori,waiting for TSD and Arashi ni Shiyagare downloads,maybe study, maybe read some more Sherlock Holmes,buy large quantities of ice-cream for the week ahead. Sunday,PMS-ing,be depressed and happy that another the new tour is starting and I can't be there but mostly depressed,finally order Gazette's new single (continue to contemplate whether to order the new album now or wait until the end of September; ｢あゝ、荒野｣ stuff will surely eat up my budget,so I have to be careful from now on what and when I buy it).

Couple days back,I randomly found myself on Keio University's website(no, Sho has nothing to do with it; I was reading someone's entry about being accepted there on an exchange program)..dunno why,but I headed over to check what courses they offer to international students among other things (and did you know that Keio has a partnership with only one(!!) greek university? I loled :p). The one thing that actual interested me was the full Japanese Studies course they were offering. Lots of interesting classes, like whoa, that cover things like language,literature,culture,politics,religion,history etc.

And then I started to wonder what could I do to be accepted in such a course.
Coz the thing is,the past couple of years I've been questioning myself, "so you graduate. Then what?". And the answer was always the same; I want to do something that pleases me. Something that I will have satisfaction doing.

I am not gonna lie. I've been pretty much wasting my time these 4,5 years here. And it's my fault of course. I mean,there are people my age who have a full blown(and some a well payed) job at the moment and I still haven't decided what I want to be when I grow up(!).

I never was a top student,will never be even,so in the "exams that decide your future" I did poorly as expected. My choices were limited. But I still decided to take up this major than not having a chance to get a university degree at all at that point("μαθε τεχνη κι αστηνα" που λεμε κι εδω :p). What I didn't know is that I would be struggling so much in the end. Not because the subjects are difficult,but because my motivation has definitely reached the lower point. I will graduate,that's a given, and hopefully it won't take that much more(I'm hoping by next year or so >_<). But after that I want to try learning something for my sake for once. Do something I enjoy for once.

Foreign languages have always been my thing. I really enjoying poking around them,see how they work,listen,try to talk,read,try to read (XD). Japanese in particular have been slowly fascinating me since I first heard my first sentences back in 2002. It took me a long time though to come to realize "Yes,I want to learn this language. I want to learn this language well enough to be able to read that book. Well enough to be able to converse with anyone about anything." By that time it was early 2007 and I was a 2nd year student here. Of course,foreign language classes in this city are limited to the usual english,german,french ones. But I decided that I will learn. After I graduate, I will.　必ず。

My parents seem to be quite accepting with whatever decision I'll make after graduation. "If you want to work,work. If you want the learn the language,do it." って感じ。 :p Which is pretty reassuring I might add. They know I'm doing what I am doing now almost unwillingly, and I think they too want to see doing something that I like in my life. It's almost the same thing with my brother. He hasn't attended the university he got in yet,instead he went on to do what he likes at this point; aiming to become a pro football(soccer :p) player. Which holds a lot more risks than you might think..My mom's been nagging him for a couple of years now for not choosing his studies,but on the same time she,more than anyone, hopes this whole attempt will end up the best way possible for everyone and especially him.

But coming back to me now. :p So yeah,I have pretty much decided to take up full proper japanese classes after I graduate.But the point of this whole wall-of-text is not that. XD The point is I've been thinking for the longest time,that if I'm gonna learn something why not do it where they teach it best! Yes,Nipponland indeed. :p Not immediately of course. I need to gain more control of the language in order to attempt something like that.But for a semester...even for 3 months or less(!),I would love to attend a Japanese language course for international students in a japanese university. Too much wishful thinking? Maybe,but I don't want to give up on the only thing that can probably give me a chance to finally do something that I like....that I love? :p














...and because too much srs bznz is bad for the mind.

never forget. They are our soul soul.